I have not posted for a few days because frankly I am a little embarrassed to admit that I fell off into the deep end this week.
We have been sick in this house and my sons lack of sleep with the cutting of the teeth had taken its toll. Even with all the affirmations and positive mirror talk I let the no sleep attitude take over and I am not happy about it.
Want to see the icing on the cake? Here it is…
Yes I know this is a vegetable steamer and yes it put me over the edge on Tuesday night. I was so incredibly tired and we were out of food and I did not want to pack 2 small kids to the grocery. I proceeded to look through the cupboards and found that we had all the fixings for homemade sushi and so that is what I started for dinner.
I put the rice and water in the steamer and turned it on. I then took the 60 minutes it takes to cook the rice and cut up all the vegetables etc for the sushi. This really does take about an hour to do. the timer dinged, the table was set, I called everyone to the table and proceeded to the steamer to mix the rice. Low an behold the rice was not even hot and still raw! “WTF” cam out of my mouth, not proud of that, but it did. I looked at the plug and found that I forgot to plug in the steamer. I literally lost it, full drama and all! The stupid steamer dial makes the same noise whether you plug it in or now. I hate that because you think it is working when its not.
I stomped into my bedroom, in tears, with my hubby asking me “what is wrong.” I did yell at him the situation and proceeded into our bedroom, slamming the door, and sobbing like a little princess. My husband cam into the room about 5 minutes later and said “what should we do?” Oh the wrong words to say, really! I said, “I don’t care, I don’t need any damn dinner.” He left and cam out to the kitchen and plastic wrapped the food, turned the rice on, and got the kids down from the table.
I decided I needed a few more minutes to feel sorry for myself and then I came out to see that my hubby took care of things. At this time he finally gave me a hug and said “it is not a big deal.” OK so he could have done this before he said “what should we do?”
We sat and watched TV until the rice dinged, I mixed it, we ate, and 45 minutes later i headed to the spare room in the basement to sleep. I slept form 9pm-7am and did not budge for nothing.
I felt like a new woman the next morning. I did not even feel sick anymore after that awesome sleep. I did feel bad that my husband did not get much sleep but not too bad as I had done it for 13 nights straight without a break and I sure needed one.
I have been trying extra hard ever since to get myself back on my positive track and I am getting better however I am still not where I was before I got sick.
This is a hard process for me and I so bad want to be successful in my journey. This first week of the new year was very hard and I am glad its over. I am starting fresh today and going to push myself even harder.
Today I made a weekend resolution to write down my goals because I have not done that yet and I think this is going to be very helpful. My in laws have a laminater and I am going to laminate them and paste them on my walls all over the house. I will let you know how this work.
Have a great weekend everyone!
Now off to some blog hopping!
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« Previous 1 2Wow, this sounds a little too familiar for me, ha ha. I think we've done something like this before a time or two (or 3 or 4) and it makes us very angry and frustrated. I'm glad your hubby was able to "fix" the situation. Good luck on your goals.
No More Monkey On My Back
I am not perfect and I have had breakdowns. My son has autism and he's a handful.
How do you make homemade sushi? My husband LOOOOOVES sushi!