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I have been a product of emotional instability with my body image for most my life. I am somewhat a perfectionist (ok some people might say more than somewhat) and was never satisfied with the way I looked even when I was healthy and thin. I always compare myself with smaller framed skinny woman and strived to look like them. Even though I knew deep down I did not have the same body type as them, I really had myself thinking that I could change that if I just did not eat or if I worked out massive hours every day. This is how my eating disorder played out after my high school experience got it under way.
This is also why I went into the fields I have degrees in BS in Exercise and Sport Science and MS in Human Nutrition. I really started to become healthy in the right ways in College and followed it really well for years. It was when I met my husband and we had to commute 70-90 miles every day to see each other that the eating out and lack of sleep took its toll. We both gained a lot of weight before we got married and after. My after marriage weight, is because of my pregnancies and his is because it always seems to happen when couples get together. I am hoping that if he sees me get healthy that he will want to as well so we can have a longer healthier life together and see our kids grow up.
I have found that the earlier I go to bed and the more sleep I get I feel a lot better and I have a lot more energy. I have also noticed that I do not crave unhealthy foods when I am more rested. The other day I was so tired and all I wanted to do was eat carbohydrates all day. I didn’t eat them all day like I wanted to but I did eat more than I should have. The next night I slept real well as my husband stayed with the baby all night. The next day I felt awesome! So revived and I wanted to eat healthy and work out and play with the kids. I did not want to sit in front of the TV all day, it was great. I wish my son would sleep through the night so I felt like this every day.
I am trying to work on my on my mental as well as my physical health. I am realizing that you can’t do one without the other to truly make the right changes in your life.
