I am feeling bad today because I am getting very frustrated. I was trying to do the turbo sculpt video today and my son kept waking up during his nap (every 5-10 min) and my daughter is very whiny and needy today. I had to take a break every 5-10 min and go back to the video and by the time I got to 32 of the 40 min. I gave up. I did do most of it, but am just so frustrated!
Why I feel bad? Well, I feel bad when I get frustrated at the kids. It seems that they always know when Mommy is in the middle of something or wants to do something and that is when they need me the most. I hate it when I get upset because I chose to stay at home and raise them and I shouldn’t get this way over a workout video right? There are days that I consider going to work a few days a week in order to get a break and then I see horrible stories like the one on AMW this week and saw how a child care provider killed a small child by punching her in the stomach and it just sickens me and I am so glad I am the one staying home with them.
I have a master’s degree and I like having a career but know that I will have many years to venture out and build that career but now is not the time. I need to remember that I will miss my kids being young one day and just need to vent now and then. Thanks for listening to my venting today!