Random Thoughts

It has been a few days since my last post and so much has happened.

Had my awesome Aunt and Uncle fro Oregon here.
Passed my license test so I am insurance licensed.
Found out that many people in my life are battling cancer right now.  On of the 3 had surgery and they can’t remove it all.  The second is not recovering well, and may not recover from the removal surgery, and the third is holding a fund raiser to pay for chemo that the insurance company won’t pay for (OK Obama, health care for everyone right?  where is his?)

All in all I am doing OK, I am trying very hard, and somewhat coming through, with positive thinking right now.  It is hard, people i love are suffering and there is pretty much nothing I can do.

If you have a FB account will you please look up and like “Watches for Junior” and buy a beaded watch he is making?  This is one way they are trying to fund his chemo and he has a stage 4 brain tumor, he needs treatment NOW.  I would appreciate any referrals to others who wish to help to.  Send everyone you know the FB link please.

Well, off to cleaning the house, playing with the kids, and praying today.

Have a good day!

I just wrote a blog post on my other blog that fits into this one so I will share the lin here. I truly believe that weeding out the negavite people/situations in yourlife is KEY to improving your though process and magnetizing the good in your life instead of the bad.

Hope you enjoy it!
http://btrbb.blogspot.com/2010/09/are-you-educated-or-opinionated.html

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean educated as in “Higher Education.” Anyone can be educated on anything as long as they take the time to 1. Ask a question. 2. Research the answer. 3. Find the RIGHT answer. This can be done as easily ad going straight to the “horse’s mouth” and asking.

I have found in my life that those that are way too opinionated and refuse to have any open minded conversation are usually the ones that have the loudest voices and feel they need to get defensive and yell or talk sternly to everyone while stating or yelling their opinion. It’s like their opinion is the only one that matters, ever.

I have also found that those who know how to become educated are those that will listen, with an open mind, and research for themselves to find the answer. It is at that point an educated person can have an intellectual and calm conversation with others. Just a note here: not everywhere you research is legitimate. Something I have always stayed clear from is Wikepedia and forums because anyone can add any opinion to those, and the biggest one, asking others instead of the person that needs to be asked!

Anyone can research, even a child. Children are actually the best at this, they ask questions all the time and if the rest of the children are like my 4 year old she will question my answer. What I have taught her is that it is OK to question my answer, but find a way to prove me wrong, legitimately and I will listen. Believe a 4 year can do this and I know of at least a dozen times my daughter and I have researched things together and many times I was mistaken and I have told her that and we learned together.

Have you ever had one of those friends that knows everything about everything? I swear I have those in my life and live with one. They will even argue with you that you’re wrong when you have the right answer starring them in the face because they can’t ever admit they may not know something?

I have 2 College degrees and I will be the first one to tell you that college does not make you smart. My degrees are in Exercise and Nutrition, what has that taught me about finance, law, medicine, etc. See where I am going with this? One thing college did teach me was how to FIND the right answer to anything. I am the queen of research. I will research something until I find an answer and then research again, and again.

When I was teaching college I researched my information every new term because I know that statistics change etc. You can’t depend on what you hear from other people who are not educated and you cannot depend on old research. Now a days old research is only a year or two old.

These past few weeks I have had to deal with a lot of negativity. People bashing and saying hurtful things before they even know what they are talking about. “Well my friend told me….” “I heard this from a friend of a friend…” Blah blah blah. Come on people, if you have known me for so many plus years and I have never steered you wrong before, what do you think I am going do? Seriously…you really think I am that kind of person. Especially to those people who have received free services from me and my husband for years, are you kidding me?

I believe that everyone comes in and out of your life for a reason. I love everyone I meet, even if for only a short time. Once I get to know them they may become harder to love but love is still there as everyone has a story.

My whole purpose of this post is a hope that people will learn how to educate themselves daily, on everything, instead of having a mind so closed that they cannot see any further in front of them then the nose on their face. I have also learned this week that it is OK to let go of some people in your life because if they are not willing to be your friend back when you need it and they say “ill” things about you to others behind your back, and then smile to your face, then why are you hanging on to that friendship? That is not a friendship. Friendship is two sided.

It is funny, but in my experience through life I have had more problems with this with the adults in my life than I had with my friends when I was young. I think it is because when we are young we still have an open mind and a hope to see something from all sides and not just one.

So mu hubby gets to be with the kids all day by himself.  When I say all day I really mean ALL day.  I have a convention and it is the butt crack of dawn and I am gearing up to head out the door and will not be back til around 11pm tonight.

He has been frustrated with the cleanliness of things lately, since we just moved in, as well as a couple other minor things as well.  Hmmmm, I think he will realize exactly what I do today, whihoo!

Maybe he will even think it is important to put the child locks on the kitchen cabinets.  I even left them out on the cupboard for him.  I am sure they will be on by the time I get home.

I love him and I am glad he gets a whole day with them because he needs it!  I need it!

Quickie post as I am out the door to another all day event.  I am NOT taking snacks today to keep me from getting bored or keep me awake.  Taking a couple tea packets and my empty cup ONLY.  Not going to have another day like last Saturday!

Got a good nights sleep so I should be good to go!

Found a new blog today and linked myself up to follow me friday, wouldn’t take my iimage though, oh well. Leave a comment if you find me from follow me friday and I will follow you back!

I know why I get the kids vaccinated, but the aftermath is not always the most fun.  Today my poor baby has a light fever, whiter than normal face, and is a little sore.  When he only gets 1-2 shots it is not too bad but 4 seems to be dragging him down a bit.  I think next time I will tell them not to give so many at a time and do 2 at a time. 

The positive side is that he is still extra cuddly, which I love, but wish it was just because he wanted to cuddle and not because he does not feel good.

My poor little one year old had to get 4 shots today and I feel so bad for him. He was in such a good mood before we went to the doctor too, and it broke my heart to take him.

It just breaks your heart when you have to hold their hand down as the nurse gives them the shots in the thighs and they look at you with that look of “what are you doing to me?” It makes me tear up every time.

He was such a little trooper and tired so hard to be happy for the rest of the day/evening but the poor little trooper just could not do it.

It was nice to be able to cuddle with him but he would get uncomfortable and sore and be mad when I was holding him and mad when I wasn’t.

After his second dose of Tylenol I put him to bed and he fell asleep in about 30 seconds at 7:30pm. I hope he sleeps all night and feels good tomorrow.

The things we do to our kids sometimes, makes you think!

I am trying to get an insurance license and have not had very much luck passing my simulator all week and I was getting more and more frustrated and my scores kept getting lower and lower instead of “practice makes perfect.” I put my finger on it today and wouldn’t you know it, I passed the test! Seriously!

I have had some “ill” feelings towards some people in my life this week and this was getting me down. When I would simulate the test I would catch my mind wandering and getting upset and then I would forget what I was reading. I would read the questions about 3-5 times each and sometimes just say “whatever” and pick C!”

I have learned this week that you can’t dwell on obstacles in your life or you will end up in my situation where it was consuming my every minute and not allowing me to get done, what I needed to get done.

I was upset because I was hoping to depend on those people in my life that I have helped numerous times to reciprocate and help me out. That was/is not happening. It is funny that I can bend over backwards and do things for others and when they say “if there is ever anything I can do for you let me know,” and wouldn’t you know, I let them know…..and nothing.

I am a true believer that what goes around comes around and I may not be getting what I need from certain individuals in my life but I do have plenty of awesome family and friends that I can depend on at any time. Instead of dwelling on those that will not reciprocate, I am now going to dwell on those that do and be even more willing to help them out as well.

So today, before the first, and the last attempt at the test I opened up my blog page to one of my first few posts. The post has my list of what I am grateful for. I got my grateful rock and rubbed it and recited the list out loud and came back to my positive mind and I felt calm. Every time I felt the feelings I have been battling with all week I would take a deep breath and rub the rock and say something I was/am grateful for. I would immediately calm down and the questions seemed much easier on the test.

When I got to question 100 I took a deep breath, pressed submit, and BAM I passed! I just needed to get over myself and there it was.

I guess I just needed a reminder of where I need to be today and I need to make sure I am reading this list everyday and keeping my mind clear and I can do anything.

Some people might read this and say “big deal it is only a 1/2 inch.”  This is what the old me would say too but not me today, today it is WHIHOO a half inch is a half inch!

So I guess I am maintaining my weight so far, better then gaining it.  I have been under a lot of stress with the move and surrendering our house yesterday back to the bank, etc.  I have been eating a lot healthier, cooking fresh food from scratch, so even though I am stressing, I have still managed to lose a half of an inch.

I truly believe the positive thinking that I have been doing has helped with me to NOT put the stress weight back on.  My stress levels are a lot lower then they would be if I was not working on myself.  If you want to know what I am talking about then check out my blog http://tawnassecret.blogspot.com

Now, as soon as we get the boxes unpacked, I will be able to get back to my normal routine and see the weight loss happen faster.