Random Thoughts

I kept on listening to the CD by Joe Vitale last night and I am still energized and feel great!  I am in a good mood, not letting things get to me, I am just happy.  It is also my sons first birthday today and the poor kid has got 100+ kisses today, songs, and dancing. He is having a great time!

Yes I still dance!  Here is our tap dance from the June 2010 dance recital.  I was taking at the Miami Valley Dance Studio in Fairborn, OH.  It was a lot of fun.  Some awesome woman dance with me-oh and 1 man of course!  Enjoy!

I start out in the very back row left (but stage right)  It is hard to see.

I blogged about how we got our daughter to stop sleeping with us and it has been successful for a while, here is that post in case you are interested, http://btrbb.blogspot.com/2010/08/my-plan-to-stop-my-4-year-old-from.html

We have a a bed free of a four year old since this day but the last couple nights she has cried herself to sleep in her bed because she wants to be in ours. I have not given in, which has been hard, but I feel like a horrible Mom when she cries herself to sleep.

We know that if we let her back in our bed we will be stuck at square 1 again and we just can’t go there. I hope this passes quickly when she figures out we aren’t going to give in.

We wish that we could just cuddle with her while she is sleeping every now and then and not have it lead to a nightly episode. We both kind of miss her in our bed for that reason, but it is nice to have our alone time too. Such a hard decision!

My mental game is killing my physical game. I had an eye opening experience with my positive thinking problem yesterday and blogged about it on my other blog http://tawnassecret.blogspot.com/2010/08/have-been-doing-this-all-wrong.html

This is one huge reason why I am not losing weight as fast as I could be because my head is controlling more than my thoughts, but it is slowing down y weight loss. I truly believe this. If I can get this positive thinking going I know I will drop this weight a lot faster. I am doing the right things but I think/know I am adding extra pounds of stress and this is not good.

If we don’t feel good about ourselves we cannot overcome anything. I know I will feel good about myself when I lose the weight, but the key is to feel good about myself now and I am not allowing myself to do that and it stops today!

Anyone else in with me?

I actually found something on my own blog that has helped me tremendously in the last couple days. I had a video add on here from Dr. Joe Vitale about his “Missing Secret” books and CD’s. I clicked on it and it took me to his web site and thus started the search to see what this was all about.

I went onto Amazon and found a double CD, with shipping it came to just over $14. It was the cheapest way I could find the CD’s and the library’s free download was way too confusing for my head this week.

I received it in the mail two days ago and popped it in the CD player yesterday.

Step back: Joe Vitale was actually in the initial documentary as well and he has overcome many obstacles in his life through the secret and that is where the “missing secret” comes from.

Do I believe him? Well let’s put it this way…anyone that motivates you to change your thought process to positive and not negative can’t be that bad right?

What I found out and what I have been doing WRONG? Well I have had doubt! I have had doubt the whole time and you can see this in a few of my negative blogs. It is hard not to have doubt and this is going to be my biggest obstacle in my journey to a healthier kind of thinking.

Joe was homeless and he was overweight and he would go to libraries and read because it was free and that is how he got involved in this secret thing. He has made a 360 turn in his life and I truly believe him. He sounds very sincere and I just need to change my thought process and believe that I am worthy to have the life I want and that I am worth fighting for.

My new blog: Well not new but revamped. I will no longer leave negative comments on my blog because I cannot bring myself down anymore. I am finally to a point where I can believe this fully and will do everything in my power to get my whole being involved so I can make this positive life change.

Joe gives so additional insight in his book/CD and I will be blogging about this missing secret and insight and sharing my progress as I go through this transition.

I felt so energized yesterday and today. I really feel that I am headed in the right direction.

I actually ordered CD’s for my parents and my husband because I want them on board with me too.

I have been trying to make sure that my kids learn a healthy lifestyle of eating right and exercising from day one.  So far so good.  My four year old likes to work out with me and we have started (well since she was 2) to do our daily dance to the radio/CD.  Yesterday was to Lord of the Dance and I know it is a long video but I think it is adorable.

Just like I blogged on my other site about teaching kids to eat healthy from the beginning, http://btrbb.blogspot.com/2010/08/kids-can-learn-to-eat-healthy.html
 I think it is important to teach them good exercise habits as well.

Enjoy the video, you can turn it off after a minute or so because I did record for awhile but you get the idea.

I have always said, if you teach your children while they are young to eat healthy they will.  My kids have been brought up on whole grains, fresh fruit and fresh cooking with fresh herbs.  This is something I was not brought up with and I have struggled with my weight my whole life.

I made some yummy pasta from my cook yourself thin faster book last night and both kids ate every bit.  Actually my one year old had two helpings.

I included a video of hes tray after he was finished.  It was too cute not to share!

The pasta had fresh cut eggplant, carrots, garlic, onions and fresh herbs.  It was yummy and chunky!

I posted my grateful list forever ago and have to confess that I am not remembering to recite my list very well.  I am making a point, thanks to my friend Tami’s post.  She does it and believes it and I want to believe it so I need to do it!

Going to post it on my mirror in the bathroom so I have to see it every morning and every night and remember all the awesome things I have to be grateful for in my life!

Thanks Tami!

Well I am almost out of diapers and have zero money. Hmm…what to do? I have two small packages of little swimmer diapers and I am using them during the day and keeping the regular diapers for overnight. I really don’t like to use the little swimmers for regular diapers but will work in a pinch I guess. Not sure what I will do if they don’t last until payday.

I want to hear from others that have had to stretch diapers to payday, what is your confession?

Unexpected work out today. Note to self: don’t ask husband for directions. When he says that the speedway gas station is only 2 blocks away add about 10 more blocks. Walked an hour in flip flops and never made it. I have blisters to prove I worked out today!