Random Thoughts

So I was not so good last night. I went over to a friend’s house to play games and had food frenzy. On a good note, I did eat a whole plate of fresh fruit, but that is not all I ate. I had chips, bugles, cake, and Sloppy Joes. I guess going to a get together, while PMSing is very hard on the will power and I lost mine for a few hours.

Oh well, I am back on the wagon today and worked out a bit more than usual today to help make up for some of the extra calories. I definitely not work out enough for all the extra calories but better than not working out at all.

I am still PMSing today and want to eat all day but I am doing better not giving in.

I am not going to beat myself up as I had a good time and am glad that I got to get together with Heidi as we don’t see a lot of each other and I think she is awesome. Thanks for the night Heidi!

I have posted this on both my blogs because I think it fits nicely in both of them.  I don’t typically post the same thing on both but decided to today.

So I was thinking about this for the last couple days…will power. I have been told, and have said to others before, “I don’t or I do have the will power to do something. “ My mind has been questioning and pondering this statement for a while and this is what I have come up with, well this is what makes sense in my head anyway.

Is will power specific to each and everything in our life or is our will power one overall power? I am leaning more and more towards ONE, not a multiple power.

I have been changing my eating and exercise habits a lot over the past few months. I have been told by many people “I just don’t have the will power like you to change mine.” I use to believe that I did not have the will power either.

As individuals we have different personalities and different habits and I think that will power is more of a values and personality thing. I have the “will power” to not kill everyone that pisses me off or wrongs me, I have the “will power” to not steal when I go into the store so why is my will power different when it comes to my body and eating? I am starting to believe that it is not different. I obviously do have the will power because I am losing weight and changing my eating habits now, I am just finally using it. I really think that all people with a conscious and those that strive to better themselves in any way at all have the will power, but it is just a choice whether or not to use it.

I think that we like to use the excuse of “I don’t have the will power” because we become afraid to start something that is different. I also think that a lot of people are prone to being scared of failure and that causes the excuse as well. I know that I am a perfectionist when it comes to myself and this has definitely been a reason for me to be lacking in the healthy environment I am engaging in now because I was scared to fail and have to admit failure.

I am now finding it real easy to keep my power strong and keep up with the exercise and eating right because I am seeing results and liking myself more so it is making me excited and satisfied to see my results.

Every individual holds the power to do anything they want to do

So I was thinking about this for the last couple days…will power. I have been told, and have said to others before, “I don’t or I do have the will power to do something. “ My mind has been questioning and pondering this statement for a while and this is what I have come up with, well this is what makes sense in my head anyway.

Is will power specific to each and everything in our life or is our will power one overall power? I am leaning more and more towards ONE, not a multiple power.

I have been changing my eating and exercise habits a lot over the past few months. I have been told by many people “I just don’t have the will power like you to change mine.” I use to believe that I did not have the will power either.

As individuals we have different personalities and different habits and I think that will power is more of a values and personality thing. I have the “will power” to not kill everyone that pisses me off or wrongs me, I have the “will power” to not steal when I go into the store so why is my will power different when it comes to my body and eating? I am starting to believe that it is not different. I obviously do have the will power because I am losing weight and changing my eating habits now, I am just finally using it. I really think that all people with a conscious and those that strive to better themselves in any way at all have the will power, but it is just a choice whether or not to use it.

I think that we like to use the excuse of “I don’t have the will power” because we become afraid to start something that is different. I also think that a lot of people are prone to being scared of failure and that causes the excuse as well. I know that I am a perfectionist when it comes to myself and this has definitely been a reason for me to be lacking in the healthy environment I am engaging in now because I was scared to fail and have to admit failure.

I am now finding it real easy to keep my power strong and keep up with the exercise and eating right because I am seeing results and liking myself more so it is making me excited and satisfied to see my results.

Every individual holds the power to do anything they want to do!

So I gripe a lot about my husband so I thought I would post something good too. The other night I am not sure what got into him but it was nice.

I had stripped our bed linens and flipped the mattress and I always ask him to pull the pad and fitted sheet on for me because the sheets fit so tight and he is a lot stronger so he gets them pulled on better so they stay longer. He does not always make the whole bed for me and I end up doing it but the other night he totally made the entire bed without me asking and was helping out around the house. He was putting up things that have been waiting a long time, fixing the cars, brushing Rae’s teeth and getting her ready for bed. I usually have to bug him to do these things and the other night he just did it.

I made sure I told him how much I appreciated everything because I wanted him to know that I noticed and was appreciative. I think it is important to compliment and not just criticize and then maybe I will see it happen more.

It sure was nice. It is the little things that mean a lot sometimes.

I am so excited to see this loss!
2-27-10              NOW            Loss/Gain
Bust: 43 ½          43                  L- ½ in.
Waist: 45            44                  L- 1 in.
Hips: 47 ½          47 ¼              L- ¼ in.
Thigh (1): 27       26 ¾              L- ¼ in.
Arm: 13              12 ¾              L- ¼ in.

Total LOSS in 19 days = 2 ¼ inches.

November 2009      NOW       Loss/Gain
Bust: 44                   43             L- 1 in.
Waist: 48                 44             L- 4 in.
Hips: 49                   47 ¼         L- 1 ¾ in.
Thigh (1): 28            26 ¾         L- 1 ¼ in.
Upper arm:  13        12 ¾         L- ¼

Total LOSS since November 2009 = 8 ¾ inches Whihoo!!!!

I have been using NO machines, NO diets pills. I have been using the cheap arm and leg weights (5 lbs each) and jogging in front of the TV and doing Pilates moves with them in front of the TV for 30-40 minutes. I have been getting a lot of compliments on losing weight so I thought I would break down and measure. I am glad I did as this made my whole day, whiohoo!!

I also have been using an ab-roller wheel. Got it for $9.99 at target and it is hard at first but can feel it work my stomach really fast. It is also strengthening my shoulders and arm muscles big time.

I am a firm believer that stress can also be a big inhibitor on weight loss. I know for a fact that I tend to add on an extra 5-10 pounds of weight just by stressing out, especially about my weight. I also think that I would be losing my weight a little faster if I could get over my mental fight with my body.

Some things I am going to try and do better:

• Quit beating myself up if I have a bad day with food or exercise. I know that every day cannot be a perfect days and life happens. I can get back on the wagon the next day. If I let myself get too frustrated and upset about a little mishap than this can turn into what I like to call a “negative fountain” and this will overflow into the rest of the week and then month, etc and then I have to start from scratch again. If I can stop that fountain at day one and get back on track then it never has to overflow the rest of my goal and I can keep on the right track.

• Quit comparing myself to every other skinny woman I see every day. I do this a lot and this is a big killer for me. I need to remember that I am one person and one day I will have other woman looking at me and wishing they could be healthy like me too.

• Quit social eating. I need to start planning ahead if I know that I am going to be somewhere that is going to be a temptation to eat a lot of bad food. One thing I can do is maybe eating a healthy meal before I go to that gathering that is going to have a lot of bad food. Then maybe I won’t snack so much on the bad food and just have 1 or 2 small snacks that won’t take a whole 5 days to work off later. Then maybe I won’t beat myself up so bad for having a binging night if I don’t go out hungry.

• Quit feeling guilty about saying “NO.” I tend feel guilty when I have to constantly say no to bad foods when people ask but I have been doing better. It is funny and sad that this actually has to be a problem. It is strange that we think that we need to constantly feed people for them to be happy in our house right? I think that as a society it would be nice if we did not gear everything we do around food. This would probably help a lot of us lose weight if we did not eat socially all the time.

These are just a few things that I can think of right now, so this is where I will start.

So you know the people that have an excuse for everything right? These are the people that live by excuses and not by reality. I have been guilty of this in my past but have come a long way to overcome this. If you want something bad enough you will find the time and not “excuse” yourself from failure. How this ties into exercise…?

So you decide to make a healthy life style change and you find every excuse in the universe to give yourself a reason to try again “tomorrow.” There is always tomorrow and if you are not ready to make a commitment then DON’T. Make the commitment when you are ready to face your life changes head on.

Some excuses that I found myself making in the past and what I see some people in my life making right now.

• I am too tired to work out today; it was a long day at work.

o Well working out will make you not tired and will help you get your couch potato but off the couch and live longer and feel better.

• I am not a morning person so I can’t work out in the morning and nights I like to spend with my family.

o Well work out with your family or go to bed a bit earlier and become a morning person. If you want it bad enough you have to make some behavior changes.

• I screwed up today and ate bad food so I am not going to work out today, I have already messed up, and I will start tomorrow.

o There is no time like the present. So you ate some bad food, big deal, now get off your butt and work it off

• I have a headache and I like to relax to get rid of it.

o 9 times out of 10 when you work out it releases stress and the headache. Go figure, this can actually help with chronic headaches.

I use to make these excuses all the time but not anymore. I find the time regardless of what my day brings. Sometimes I have to work out late at night or get up at 5 or 6 in the morning. I want it that bad. I am tired of making excuses and am sick and tired of hearing the excuses. Don’t start it unless you are really ready to make a change. I want to live a long healthy life so I am around to watch my kids grow and do the amazing things I know they will do. No one will give me this healthy lifestyle but me. I have the power!

So my husband put 2 new belts in my car last summer. Every time it is cold or rainy outside one of them would squeal until the car warmed up. Sometimes this took a very long time and my entire trip, to anywhere, would be me and my squealing car. It was very embarrassing and the only way I could get it to stop temporarily was to rev the engine really hard.

Well I guess going down to a one car family and my husband having to drive my car more did the trick. Today he actually spent the 30 minutes and tightened the belt and wouldn’t you know “it was a lot easier than I thought to tighten it.” Of course before all I ever heard was “it is a lot harder then you realize.” Everything is always a lot harder then I realize because this is the excuse he likes to give me when he just doesn’t want to be bothered.

I love my husband very much and know that I do vent a lot about him, but 90% of the time he is great. It just makes me laugh because I knew this is what it would take to get him to finally fix my car. Now I don’t have to be embarrassed to drive! Thanks babe!

So I got some horrible virus that I have been battling for 4 days now with a fever, swollen glands, headache, and sore muscles.

The only positive thing about being sick is that my appetite is about gone. I have to force myself to eat and when I do it is not much. I hate not being able to work out but it will not do me any good to try and force myself well I am this sick, it will actually make me feel worse. I am hoping that today is the last horrible day but we will see. Thought I was over the fevers but have had a couple low ones creep up on me again already, rude!

OK so tell me why when a woman is sick she is still expected to cook, clean, and take care of the kids and when the man is sick he sits in a chair and moans and groans and expects to be catered too?

When I am sick I am still asked, “what are you thinking for dinner,” or “did you get my work shirts cleaned,” or “I got a lot of work to do in the basement.” I have to pretty much force him to take charge and give me some time to relax and try to get over my sickness.

I guarantee you that if he gets what I have he will be moaning and groaning and expect to be served while he gets better. I swear, when I die and go to heaven I better get to be catered to when I feel horrible!