Random Thoughts

So I was trying desperately today to put some jeans on my son who is fitting nicely into 18 month clothes for Pj’s and shirts and any other pant but jeans.  Here are two pairs of his jeans that are BOTH 18 months

I did not get a picture before I put them on because I decided to blog about this after I got him dressed.  You that have kids can understand why I did not want to undress him.  Anyway guess what size these perfect fitting jeans are?  Ready…..12 months!  OMG this is so ridiculous!  I know that things cannot be exact but is there anyway we can at least be close?  This makes shopping so hard its ridiculous.  I have actually kept larger clothes for both of my kids and when they were in that size I take the clothes out and end up not being able to use a handful of them every time because they are too small.  Frustrating.

At least he looks cute and happy!

Joe Vitale, as you know if you have been reading my posts, has been a HUGE inspiration for me through my positive thinking journey.  Again, I will plug for him, and no I don’t get paid to do this I truly believe in what he has to say, you really need to listen to his CDs “The Missing Secret” it has so many helpful things in it.  The ones I have added form amazon are the exact ones I have been listening to over and over again.

Anyway, his third step “the missing secret” is the step I have stuck on and need to find a way to move past it and get over myself.  This step is the one that talks about your beliefs.  The problem is that most of the time we believe that things MAY NOT work out and they won’t because we believe that.  I have been doing better but am so far away from getting this third step under control.

If my mind was clear and I truly believed that I deserved wonderful things all the time I am pretty sure, no scratch that I KNOW, that I would not be living pay check to pay check and wondering how the heck I am going to buy Christmas dinner trimmings with a whole $40 in my bank account.

See…this is my own fault.  My mind is not “clear” and I am not allowing it to feel worthy of everything I need it to so I am temporarily stuck in between step 2 and 3.  I NEED to figure this out and clear my  mind quickly so I don’t get further into the negative rut.  I am doing well but not well enough so it’s time to “poop or get off the pot!”

It will all work out and we will have a great Christmas, new years and so on.  If i can only just get over my fear of getting what I want!

I hope that everyone has a blessed holiday and a Merry Christmas!

My butt is feelling much better and I am able to even sleep on my back for a little while.  My bandage finally fell off and the scar is not very bad.

Just a little bit of clear tape on it and no infection so that is great.

I have had a few days where I have turned up the voltage 2 notches instead of only 1.  It has been consistently getting better but still small issues throughout the day so it has not been on a high enough setting. 

Go to the doctor Jan 10th for a check up and hope to have the setting perfected by then.  So far so good!

I wrote this post and saved it and then went to he Columbus zoo lights last night.  I accidentally ran into something and OUCH my incision is killing me.  It is still so sensitive.  I had to take one of my vicoden (sp?) it hurt so bad when I got home.  It is still really tender this morning.  I wonder how long this tenderness on my incision will last?  It sucks!

I posted a few days ago my weight gain over the couple weeks of surgery.  Even though I have not been feeling good enough to do much of a work out I have lost pretty much what I gained over those surgery weeks just in the past few days. 

I may not be able to do extensive work outs yet but just being able to get up and clean, do laundry and get off my butt has helped.  Here is my inches since Dec 14th, today is December 20th so this is my loss in 6 days!

 December 14                 December 20          Loss or Gain

Bust:  41                        41                            0
Under bust:  35 3/4        35 1/2                      L-1/4
Waist:  41 1/2                41                            L-1/2
C-section:  42 1/2          41 1/2                      0
Hips:  45                        45                            0
Thigh:  25 1/4                 25                            L-1/4
Arm:  11 3/4                  11 3/4                      0

Total loss in 6 days = 1 inch!

I am very excited about this.  I know if I could actually work out more this would be more but I am NOT going to beat myself up about it due to the circumstances.

Just getting my butt off the couch and doing daily chores and eating healthy and watching my portions is taking it off!

Can’t wait to work out again, hopefully soon!

I am no expert but my opinion is that Christmas chopping does NOT have to be so difficult.  I have a novel idea and a very easy formula to make Christmas shopping easier and help you spend a lot less time in the hustle and bustle of hoards of people.  Get a pen and paper and get ready to take some notes.  Are you ready?  Here it goes……don’t forget to write this down…….ASK!

There you go, pure ans simple and to the point.  Ask! It’s simple and easy and you may find that it takes a lot of stress off you.  I do this…really!

I used to spend hours trying to find that “perfect” gift and I would get frustrated and spend days and days on just a few little things that should have really only taken a handful of hours to find.  I decided a few years ago after many years of thinking I had the perfect gift, and finding out later, it was not so perfect, that all I needed to do was ask.  This way it puts it on the giftees shoulders.  If they chose to make you guess and not tell you what they want, do not feel bad that they don’t like it because it is not your fault that they did get what they wanted, it’s theirs.

I do not see the importance or reason to force yourself to “know” what everyone wants and then get upset or hurt when you find out that people do not respond to your gift as you think they will.  There are a few occasions when asking may not be appropriate and this can be in romantic relationships.  There are times that I would like to have my husband just buy me something nice or pretty and I want to know that he truly thought about it and bought it with his heart.  It is these gits that I am not expecting any certain thing, I just want to know that he is thinking about me. 

We should not HAVE to do this with every relationship in our lives, really.  We should be able to send a text or call someone and say “hay, I want to get you a gift that you really want, can you give me 2-3 suggestions?”  I don’t know why but their are people in my life that just refuse to do this and they start shopping in Oct or Nov and do not get done until Dec 23 or 24th.  They are pissed off and stressed all the time and shopping with them sucks, so I don’t go.  Does this sound healthy?

This year I wanted a Mothers ring, and a specific mothers ring, and instead of dropping hints and expecting my husband to figure them out I simply said, I am buying this mothers ring for Christmas, with your money, is that OK?  He was ecstatic that I did not make him pick it out.  He still gets to buy me a present but I am so excited to be getting what I have been longing for over the past couple of years.

I hope that everyone has a very merry christmas and that you get everything you want.  For me, it is my family together, with a fire, and watching Christmas movies.  That is what I want the most.  Oh and hugs and kisses too!

I have been struggling with my positive thinking over the last 5 to 6 days and it is really bothering me.  I can’t quite put my finger on what is wrong exactly but I will catch myself being mad and try to change my out look and I can for a few minutes but then I am back to angry.  Anytime when money is needed I do get stressed but have been getting better changing my attitude, but the last few days have been harder then ever.  I am not sure if it is the stress of having enough to cover the extra groceries etc for Christmas or if I am PMSing or what.  I don’t always know when I am PMSing as I had an endometrial ablation done last year and do not have periods anymore (the best thing I EVER did believe me)!  Anyway, I am going to try 100 times harder this week to change my mood.

Something I have noticed big time and more proof that the law of attraction DOES work….I have had everything fall apart over the last few days because of my shotty attitude.  Seriously, I have been dropping things, tripping on things, stubbing my toe more and fighting with my daughter more.  This is NOT what I want and that is the whole reason I have decided to change my outlook in the first place.  I have got to get my head in the game and get back on track TODAY.

UNIVERSE:  I am giving you my negative thoughts to take today and I WILL have a great and wonderful day with my family and not stress about such little inappropriate things like money.  Tis the season to remember how awesome our families are and how lucky we are to have them.  This is and will be my focus from now on.  Other things do not matter and will not get me down anymore.  I will have a Merry and Wonderful Christmas!

I am saying this out loud every day, 2-3 times a day if I need too!

OK I am venting today.  I was so looking froward to tacos and bought 2 boxes of hard corn shells, got them home, prepared the meet, cheese etc and opened up the taco shells to put them in the oven and BAM, 100% broken.  I am serious.  They were the last thing I did, food was on the table and I have no shells!  This is so frustrating.  I did not drop them or anything so they cam from the store shelf like this.  Ugh!  I wold have taken them back but by this time it was not much of a choice as I had dinner prepared and we were all starving!

We ended up having moon shaped tostadas (sp?).  It was he best thing I could think of and we did not waste the shells this way.

I am buying an extra box next time so I can take them back, this has never happened to me before!

I tried but it is just entirely to soon after my surgery to do the P90X.  I am thinking that it is probably not a
good idea to push myself especially when I am still having some pain where the incision is.  My new goal to start P90X is going to be February 1st, 2011.  I should hopefully be able to afford the pull up bar and bands by then to and make a better “go” of it.

I am not going to put off working out totally, I am going to continue with my plank position and arm weights and walking until my butt feels good enough to work out!

I can’t wait to be able tos tart this in Feb!

Who says you can’t use side walk chalk when it snows outside?  Not me, we had a great time with it.  Love it that it washes off so easily!  We had a good snow storm last week and after we finished marking up the entire back yard, we were not ready to go in yet so we drew all over the fence.  Now my daughter thinks I am the bomb!  We had a lot of fun!

Today was plyometrics which is disc 2 of P90X well….made it about 10 minutes and my butt did not like that too much.  Too much too soon after surgery I guess.  I did not push it as I don’t need another surgery so I turned it off.  I will have to come back to that one in about a week or two.  Today will be plank position, some arm eights, and cleaning the house.  I shoveled the snow that only took 20 minutes but I could tell I was getting a good work out.

I wonder how long I can do plank after not doing it for a couple weeks cuz of surgery?  Let’s me see I will go do that now….

OK so I made it only 70 seconds.  Butt did not like that much after 60 seconds either, blah! Oh ya I am positive now.  Whihoo 60 seconds.  60 seconds will happen 3 times today.  Just because I can’t do it all at once yet does not mean I can’t break it up!

Will try P90X disc 3 tomorrow!!