Random Thoughts

Even at 39 years old it is hard to grasp that our parents may leave us someday.  We all know it is going to happen but just can’t seem to grasp that concept even as we get older and wiser.

Having a little scare with my Dad lately and I feel like a little girl again.  “Not MY Dad, no way, my Dad is going to live forever and ever, he is indispensable!”  I know the reality but I am not willing to face it head on.

There are many different directions the next few years could take with him and of course I am hoping for the live long and healthy option. 

It is days like today that I sit here wondering if moving so far away was the right decision.  I ask this to myself and then my little 14 month old grabs my leg and gives me a hug, duh yes it was the right choice, I would not have my beautiful family if I hadn’t moved, I just wish it wasn’t so far and expensive to visit home more often.

Heres to some good news in the near future.

Love you Dad!

All measurement in inches.
Nov 2                                  Nov 19           Loss or Gain

Bust 41                                41                   0
Under bust 35 3/4                35 1/2             L 1/4
Waist 41                              40 3/4             L 1/4
Around C-section scar 42    42                   0
Hips  44 1/2                         44 1/2            0
Thigh (1)  24/3/4                  24 3/4            0
Arm 12                                12                  0
Some might think that a half inch is not worth posting but I do!  I was noticing my clothes feeling even a little bit more lose so I thought I would measure.  In just a couple of weeks a half inch is awesome!  I really needed to see a loss today to help cheer me up so yay me!

Still been keeping up with the plank position about every other day.   busted the free weights and the leg weights out just 2 days ago.  cleaning the house a lot to help relieve stress with worrying about my Dad right now.  I know that I am not losing some stress weight and I have had insomnia due to the worrying too so I know for a fact that is keeping some of it on.  Trying to relieve that now.

Have a great weekend!

I posted awhile ago about going to the grocery more by purchasing less groceries at a time so i could walk there and burn more calories and tonight as I watched my recording of the biggest loser that was their tip.  Walk to the grocery store so you can burn calories…hmmm….maybe I should be a writer of tips for the show!  LOL!!

It has helped me burn more calories and it gets me out of the house more and has helped me save about $150ish dollars a month then when I bought a ton of groceries at a time.

Oh my goodness, I took both my kids in to get a haircut today and it was the first haircut for my 14 1/2 month old.  I had him in my lap and the hair capes we were wearing pretty much did nothing.  It is a good thing that my hair dresser is a friend because I think if it were anyone else they would have quit and my son would probably be lop sided.  Nancy is a trooper and his hair looks great!

I and my son ate a bunch of hair, had it in our eyes, he screamed the whole time it was exhausting.  I am seriously sore now and can’t take any ibuprofen due to an upcoming surgery so I am definitely feeling it but look at the difference and how cute he looks!

I know, another post about my awesome lab but I needed to post another one today:)  I have had my dog at every 6 month appointment, religiously since she was born and last year she ended up on thyroid medication due to excess weight gain.  I have always been good about getting her outside and walking but last year she seemed to gain a lot of weight and they were actually finding fat deposits in her blood work, which can kill a dog only after a few years.  I was not OK with that so we put her on a small dose of thyroid medicine and it took her down about 5 pounds and she was better, but I hated giving her medication every day.

We moved into a smaller house but it has a yard 4 times bigger and she LOVES it!  My dog was an inside dog.  I am one of those dog people that treats my dog like one of my kids, I love her to know end.  I can’t keep her in the house now with this new yard and we love going outside everyday and playing with her.  Our last yard was small and had a 6 foot retaining wall on half of it, with no fence so I did not go out much with the kids, we had to depend on the daily walk for 30 minutes around the neighborhood.

Since we moved into this house 5 months ago I noticed my Shadow Belle looking too skinny and I got worried and took her off her medication about 3 months ago.  She has stayed lean and trim but does not look “ribby” anymore.  I took her to the vet for her 6 month check up tomorrow, and I did not tell them she was NOT on her m eds anymore, and to give her the normal thyroid test.  The Vet’s exact words “Shadow’s thyroid is perfect & so is her weight, so keep her on the does of thyroid she is on.”  My response “Shadow has not been on the medicine for about 3 months.”  The Vet “Oh, I guess she does not need it anymore, really, no medicine eh?”  Me “No because we have a huge back yard now and she refuses to come inside.”

I always worry that doctors like to keep people and animals medicated because of the $ involved so I did not want to tell them initially that she was not taking the medication anymore.  Not saying that this Vet is like that but better to be safe then sorry.

The moral to my story?  Well…my dog is getting 200% more exercise then she was before, so yes the thyroid meds were helping her initially but I love to see her healthy and un-medicated better!

I should have been walking her 60 minutes every day before rather then 30 minutes as who knows, this could have stopped the excess weight gain in the beginning.  I was pregnant a lot during that 4 years of her life and always sick so I know this had something to do with it.  I am so happy that she is healthy now though!

Have you hear this before: “If you don’t expect too much then you won’t be disappointed?”  Do you believe this? I used to believe this but no anymore.

When in the world did we start to believe that we are not worthy of things?  Why do people tear down those that succeed and automatically think that they are horrible selfish people because they succeed?  There are good and bad people all around the world, in every class, poor, middle class and rich.  Just because someone has riches does not make them bad, selfish, or a jerk, it just means that they have found their way to make it.  I strongly believe that if you do not expect much out of yourself that you are cutting yourself short of the possibilities in your life.  When you say these negative things long enough then you believe then subconsciously and this allows the negative energy to consume you.

Those that expect and feel that they have the right to receive may fail along the way but part of success is failure and you do not succeed without failure.  The key is not to give up and expect everything and anything because you deserve it!

I expect life long happiness and gratification from my secret experiment and deserve it and will have it and no one can make me think otherwise.  Come one now, we are all worth the time and energy to better ourselves, now quit making excuses and go grab what is rightfully yours!  Attitude is everything!

It has been another poor week, well actually two weeks.  This check we still had some extra money that needed to go to the power bill for our last house we moved out of in the summer.  It was hard (and we still haven’t caught up totally) to catch up.

We are not supposed to be paid until Monday the 15th but we got our paycheck today, which is only the 13th.  We will get paid early if the 15th lands on a weekend but not if it lands on a Monday.  Not typically anyway.

We were down to literally our 25 cents in the bank.  Typically I would be freaking out and not eating lunches myself etc to try an conserve food for everyone else to make it through til payday.  I have not been dong this anymore, well for the last month-six weeks.  I am trying so hard not to let the thoughts of no money consume me and am getting better, but this is the hardest one for me to let go.

Well 25 cents in the bank account, gas lights on in my car and I am pretty sure my husbands is close, and we had things we absolutely have to do today, like take my elderly neighbor to the airport for one, and buy our some milk, and so on.

Woke up this morning and am getting ready to leave, like nothing is holding me back, got an alert sent to my cell phone and BAM, pay check!  YES! Pay check is in the bank, we a good!  Whew! Loving this Law of Attraction and learning how to attract the good things.  We can do what we need to do and eat, and I am w hole lot less stressed out!

Thanks Universe!

I posted on my random blog a few times a while back about how me and my daughter were fighting a lot, or me and my husband arguing a lot, etc.  I don’t know the exact date but the blog is http://btrbb.blogspot.com/ This was before I really started getting the hang of all this positive thinking and law of attraction stuff.  Something I have realized lately is that my relationships are starting to change too, and definitely for the better.

My awesome brother has been calling me a lot lately and I LOVE it!  I love hearing from him and I love that we get to connect like we have never connected before.  This is a new thing that I hope never stops!  My relationships all over, as a whole are getting stronger and better and this is what life is about, family and relationships and strong ones at that. 

My daughter and I are fighting about an eighth of the time now.  Don’t get me wrong, she is 4 and head strong and I am 39 and head strong but since I have been changing my attitude, so has she.  It is very hard to admit that we may be the cause of negative things, but sometimes we need a reality check and my bad attitude was my reality check.  I don’t want my daughter growing up thinking that a Mom and Daughter relationship is built on arguing and if I would not have made these positive changes in my life this would have been her view.

I called my husband last night while he was driving to stupid Cleveland for work (sorry Cleveland followers but it takes him away 2 days a week so that is what we call it).  I guess this is another thing I need to work on a change next right, my Cleveland attitude?  Well later for that, but back to the phone call. 

Last night I just felt inclined to call my hubby and tell him that I wanted him to know how much I appreciated him and everything he does for us.  There was nothing traumatic or horrible that happened that made me want to tell him that, it was just a good time to tell him.  He was taken back a bit and I think he was waiting for a…BUT…but there was no but in my sentence, I just wanted him to know.  The sound of his voice was very cool to hear and I knew that he was a bit taken back of my randomness and it felt great knowing that I was able to share this with him as it means a lot to me to make sure he knows how much he means to me.

My new goal in life is to make sure I let those people I love know daily how much they mean to me and not wait for something sad or tragic happen to open up to them.  This doesn’t mean I am going to go all smother crazy but it will not hurt to just add a little note in a lunch or something like that every now and then to let them know how they add value in my life.  If I do this then I know I will get it back and how cool is that!

I just have to brag about my awesome black lab today.  She is too cool, I love this dog.  I have always wanted a black lab and when I got one at my Bridal Shower from my cousin, I knew it would be a long great friendship with the dog and the cousin!

Dogs seem to always know and Shadow (my lab) always knows what I need.  She is a Mommas girl big time.  Follows me no-stop, hence the name Shadow.  When I am upset she comes over and lays her head on my lap (I know its her way of giving me a hug).  When I am happy she hops around excited, wagging her tail and makes me even more happy.  She is just too cool. 

Last night it was something so simple but it made my whole day.  I was watching a movie called. Love Happens, and it was a bit sad.  It made me cry a little and my dog came out of my kids room, where she was asleep, almost immediately when the tears started and lay her little (big) head on my lap and sat there for about 10 min.  After the show I went to bed and she followed me in and stood beside my bed until I got the covers on, gave me a  couple kisses and then headed off to her pillow.  Is that not the best dog in the world!  I love her and just had to share this story.